I feel this. I was so frustrated all the time jumping from one emotionally unavailable partner to the next, hoping they would finally support me in the way I needed... I recently have a much clearer grasp on how suffering chronic emotional neglect as a kid pushed me towards searching for that same pattern in the hope I could "make" someone change like I couldn't with my parents. it's brutal dude.

The only way I've been able to find the deep connection I desperately longed for was to lean into self work and meet those needs for myself. Therapists call it "re-parenting". good luck friend <3