Thank you Lindsey! I can relate to a few of these points in my relationship. It's a lovely, healthy relationship but several of my core needs are consistently not getting met and it just doesn't feel like they fit into my life / social circle well. It's a great relationship, it just doesn't feel like a best friend situation.. or home. They are autistic so even though I adore them a lot of our interactions feel forced and it's exhausting for me. I don't truly feel understood. half the time I can't tell if it's emotional dependency or if I actually want to be here. We went ldr 4 months ago after I moved to Colorado and that's not helping either. I can't justify moving on because it's not toxic... and why can't I just shut up and be happy? ugh.